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  • Mood: Depressed
  • Reading: Illusion by Sherilyn Kenyon
I'm so tired of friendship. IRL friendship that is. Online it's easy, no one has to deal with you if they don't feel like it. They can take a break and figure out how to word things to their online friends. And if they're upset their online friends don't have to see them and put up with their constant whining or frustrations. IRL friends have to deal with me crying, whining, begging for them to support me when I'm at my worst. Asking them to accept the fact that I have different views than them and I want to share my opinion. But no. Real world friends are useless apparently. I get better support and love from people who don't know me IRL and don't have to put up with me. Because obviously no one wants to take the time to get to know me and put up with my crap and prove they are worth my time! No one wants to truly be my friend! And I'm so tired of it. I'm so tired of being numb and surrounded by people who pretend to care about me but when I need them most they ditch me because I'm too much for them to handle. I try my best to be there for them when they need a helping hand but that's all I seem to be to them! Someone to support them and have fun with, BUT THE MINUTE I NEED THAT SUPPORT THEY ABANDON ME TO DROWN! I AM SO SICK OF TRYING TO MAKE FRIENDS, OF TRUSTING PEOPLE ONLY TO BE BEATEN DOWN WHEN THEY DON'T WANT TO DEAL WITH MY EMOTIONS AND DON'T CARE ENOUGH ABOUT ME TO SUPPORT AND HELP ME WHEN I NEED THEM! I am through trying to make friends. If you want to become my friend then you're going to have to work hard to prove to me that I can trust you. Because I have had my heart ripped out and shredded TOO MANY TIMES in the last six years. By too many people that I thought were my friends. I literally am NUMB and can't trust people anymore, not even those closest to me because of the suffering I've been subject to by people I thought I could trust. But if I tried to speak my mind, even politely and without any anger or discriminatory feeling to my words, they shut me up. Wouldn't let me state what I believe because they disagree with it and don't want to hear me out. I want friends that even when our opinions differ on major issues like homosexuality and abortion, I can still state what I believe and why and trust that they won't try and make me keep my views to myself. They will respect me and my views and let me speak my mind, and if they do that much for me then I will do the same for them. Heck I let people speak their mind to me regardless of whether our opinions differ or not! I try and respect people and hear them out. ALL I ASK IS FOR YOU TO SHARE THE RESPECT AND LOVE I GIVE YOU! I am sick of 'friends' I want people that reach out to me and don't let me go even when I push them away because they care about me enough to push through my pain and prove they are worth my trust and love. I'm tired of broken trust.

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Sophia West
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I love to read, write, draw and listen to music. Simple me. Just be your self, you never know what might happen. Besides, "the more you lie the more you have to remember"--quote I can't remember where from. If you have requests for stories, certain fanfic, or drawings send me a message and I'll see what I can do. I love to help. And I'm bored and want to expand my talents. my account on fanfiction.net:www.fanfiction.net/u/2309002/C…
Youtube account: www.youtube.com/redalerter
quotev.com account: www.quotev.com/pyrokitsune
Time is NEVER wasted, just creatively recycled. :D

Current Residence: The place in which I reside. I live on Earth. That's good enough.
Favourite genre of music: Chrsitian Rock
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MP3 player of choice: Samsung Galaxy SIII (phone I know but it doubles as my music player)
Favourite cartoon character: Courage the Cowardly Dog... Cause he is AWESOME!
Personal Quote: "Everybody's weird in their own way."

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welcomz. :)
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Thank you for the :llama:!   :'D
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Heh, welcomz, thanks for the fav.
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Welcomz, thanks for the fave. :)
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Your welcome :D
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Thank you, sugar! :heart:
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ChainedtoInsainity Featured By Owner Mar 31, 2015  Hobbyist Writer
You're welcome, I wanted to laugh when I saw it because it fits perfectly. My boyfriend sent me a Yu Yu Hakusho story request, his character in the story is a reaper and his fave animal is a white tiger! XD
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